Memories of joy and happiness should be treasured in one’s life. Losing your loved ones might be pain and unbearable. However, it is important for us to look forward and carry on our life. We missed those we lost, but their presence in our life will definitely be eternal.

My dear grandma- aged 85, had left the world yesterday, without seeing us for the last time. The saddest thing was, we are supposed to celebrate her birthday yesterday. She did not manage to enjoy the last moment of her life. Or rather, the second last moment of her life; she was supposed to see my cousin graduating today.

Life is unpredictable. It was sad because it turned out to be a sad day instead.

My parents and I were the first to reach my grandma house at 5pm. The maid called us at earlier on. We were desperate, but yet calm. My mum was crying and devastated when she found out that my grandma was breathless. My grandma did not response, despite us calling upon her. I was praying very hard to lord, hoping for miracles to happen. But nothing happened. So I prayed for salvation instead and my mind was blank.

The situation was pretty chaotic back then. There was no doctor to certify her death. Then my dad who was firm and calm, instructed everyone present to settle down. I did not cry, my mind wasn’t blank at all. I proceed to calling any 24 hr clinic nearby. But there were not stand-in doctors. We resolved to seek the undertaker service. Eventually, they helped us to look for a doctor. So after so much of administration or rather delays and waiting time, my grandma was officially pronounced dead.

I was firm yet sad. I did not cry. I couldn’t…. I could only remember the days I spent with her when she was still able to walk back then. I treasured those memories.

Not until, when they were about to layer the coffin. All family members were supposed to burn joysticks and see her for the last time. I DID NOT do that because of my faith in Christianity, but I do want to see my grandma face for the last time. I was about to walk in and see her, but the undertakers were about to layer the coffin. I was desperate and lost. I told them I wanted to see her for the last time. And I did, fortunately. But tears just went down my eyes eventually. I couldn’t bear it. The person whom I hold so dearly had just disappeared for the world forever. I was sad, but I cried out to the lord for salvation.

Psalm 23
A psalm of David.
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.
4 Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death, [a]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.
I missed you so….Por Por.

God Bless everyone.

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