Ever thought of sometimes, when a CLT signed up for lots of stuff, camps, events and other, it seems that you have went for everything or well almost everything. There’s always a first time. Well to think I served HQ for almost 1 ½ year in NCC, this was my first time taking part and helping out in IMT. Well this was practically my first time, thanks to DC; I was able to go for it. HA, I finished my prelims, so I had a thought to help out HQ. At first, it did not cross my mind because dad “promised” me to give me a part-time one day job. Sadly, he told me last minute that there isn’t any job available in his company. Fine!!!!!! So I ended up helping NCC. And I was kind of unpleased when dad and mum were saying I am kind of wasting my time and I am putting effort in my study. But I was working very hard for prelims; it was just that they did not really see it because for your info, I went to study in Mac and library this time for prelims. Gosh, it’s another first time experience again as I always stick at home to mug last time.

Today IMT was great. I enjoyed working with my juniors CLTs like Hadi Maszura Rafeeq and Xiu Juan. Great Job guys!!!!!!1 It’s just about appearance needed to be improves for some CLTS, don’t want to mention who. But I am sure he will learn from mistakes. We all learn from mistakes. Well everything went smoothly, but there a little bit of cock-up here and there. And some teachers giving some “trouble” (Caption 1), again I must hereby saying I not mentioning about anyone, I am just passing a comments. And this above (caption 1) refers to no one it’s a personal comments and it definitely bear no attacks or grudges to any teachers. Well I may be a teacher one day; I guess I may cause some unnecessary trouble. Oh NO!!!!OK I must stop, I must not be pessimistic. The cadets are kind of “cute” as they are part A, anxious and nervous for they were handling the rifle for the first time, I meant to shoot…..Remember the days when I was in part A, I was so exited over shooting. Well Wei Ren is afraid of the rifle initially, he thought he might kill someone with it or worst committing suicide just because of a M16 rifle, when there isn’t any really bullet inside. Like most of the part A cadets, I am scared, and inevitably, I felt very uncomfortable. In the end I fail my grouping size. I failed all; none of my four try passed. I felt even guilty when one of the retired Encik gave me another chance to re-shoot and I failed again. I did better for part B and Part C, I did well. Haha. To the part A or Part B cadets who are reading my blog, enjoy your shooting experience, it’s one in a live time. (For the girls) and a warm up before army (for the boys).

Well after the IMT, I went to eat with Maszura, Hadi and Rafeeq. We began talking, and at the same time, I was pondering upon something; it was about the objectives of being a CLT. I recalled that I actually got hold of an essay written by a senior whom I have never met of; in my computer. Well in fact, many people came with different purposes. I guess there is this transition of mentality (me personal thought and comments) of attending the CLT course. There are so much of differences of being a CLT than before. Yes things have change. I guess what drive people to attend CLT Course is passion to serve NCC. The olden or I should associate with core reasons that still exist today. But it has evolved; many other reasons became the answer to why attending CLT Course. It comes down to reasons like the good sites, the passion of learning through CLT and NCC, the passion for cadets, the never-die hard spirit to NCC. It can also be the bad sites,(Usually people will definitely not say it) to have a sense of authority or simply the rank name as to what is to be named; Cadet lieutenant. Well having a sense of authority over the cadets may be “healthy” to certain extent but definitely not exactly healthy. HAHA, just a comment. Well I guess some of them may find my reasons to be hypocritical. I started off with a main objective- to learn and thrive throughout my CLT Journey, and to find out more and learn more thorough events that I have missed when I was a cadet and a specialist in Bedok View. But throughout the journey, I found out that my main and core reasons to be a CLT doesn’t comprise of solely the above reason. A hidden reason I had for NCC that I have not noticed until recently mid- last year- a passion for NCC. I love it and it’s a passion that could not be written down in words.

Many at times, when I look back at my journey in NCC, I found out the challenges and setback I have too faced while accomplishing my objectives of learning through NCC. I guess. Sadly, I recalled the past unhappy experiences I had. I recalled once when Lt Zaw told me he was very disappointed with me because I had a commotion with Augustine even though it seems that I am the victim “bullied” by him. But by personal reflection, I thought I had some responsible because of the commotion. Secondly was in YEP. It was great trip. But I learnt the most negative aspect of men. When a team working in a foreign land, every true colours of men came out. I guess my true-self went out too. It; hard to acknowledge a paradox in which someone you thought you know well of, turn out to another person you never expect. A good example, was the time when I guess I was under great stress when I was a I/C. I shouted very badly on Benjamin. Well, I shouted because he wasn’t following my orders. But I started feeling that’s not a good way to be a leader. I should not be the one who “demand” someone to listen to my orders. In fact I was good; I would have convinced everyone to listen to what I said earlier on. I recalled another thing about some stuff that happened in Spec course phase 1. When CLTS are carrying out something they aren’t supposed to do so, I voiced my disapproval. But some of them look it as me being ignorant. I did hold strong to my stand to stop them, but it was learning point too. I guess sometimes in some others eyes; Why Wei Ren deserves the CLT rank? Why Wei Ren is promoted to SCLT? Why Wei Ren is being awarded? Why this and why that. I guess comments flows in as just what it is. It’s inevitable. But I guess it only through these comments which make one stronger.

There are many setbacks and sadness, but there are also joys throughout NCC Journey. The applause and cheers back in NCC Day Dinner was memorable, the tears and joy of winning the challenge trophy. The sense of pride I felt when the CLT rank touched down my shoulder-a starting of my CLT Journey and Responsibility.

Once again, I thanked those who played a significant role in my part- My 46th and 47th intake CLT mates, my juniors’ from 48th onwards, my seniors, my superiors and also lord my saviour.

Thanks to KW who made the call back in February 2004 to ask me to go for camp feast my first ever camp. That was my first step to serve HQ. CK for your sarcastic joke on me haha, we knew each other since primary schools. We were classmates before. DC for giving me so many opportunities despite “imposing a ban” on me on NCC activities. Yuda and Liting who listen to my sorrow sometimes. Jerome and Jennifer for teaching me the wonders of Mahjong. I like mahjong but I don’t play it with money. And of course many more.

Well in conclusion, I guess this an essay which I guess I made use a great load of time to type it, hope some of the passage may let ponder upon some stuff. Take care and may journey be always fruitful. Be strong with setbacks and thrive well!!!!

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