Tuesday, September 27, 2005
OK I will announce my results first...... i got AOEF. Nohting fancy about i did badly. Quite a lot got the grade A for c maths nothing special about.
This is going to be the first time i am going quote some phrase from bible..........ISAIAH 55 :6-8 "Seek the lord while he may be found; call on him while he is near. Let the wicked forsake his way and the evil man his thoughts. Let him turn to the lord and he will have mercy on him"
I am very down now, not just my results but some other external factors, my family stuff. I understand what Serene feels, i really understand. I am sad, it's not about me now, it concerns me though. I cry out to lord for shelter upon my family. I really hope my parents and i can cope through this trauma. LORD CAN U HEAR MY CRY?
I am starting to fear the law....... Is law ever justified????? I am pondering upon. What is law???
Can law really appease everyone who believes in it?
I just need a peace within. Dear GOD! Can u hear me? Your son who is really now in the lost.
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Sunday, September 25, 2005
I just came back from a relative’s dinner gathering. Food was great, and I had a great time chatting with Uncle Fook Meng, he really has lots of great ideas and stuffs to tell me. Indeed I had a wonderful time.
Sign…..tomorrow will be the first day of schools after 2 weeks of dreadful prelims. I am very certain that some of my results will be out. That is not really a good sign though as I don’t really want to see the outcome of my results unless they moderate my grades……..
Saturday, Ying Bei and Gowri came all the way from west to my house just to do the photo frame, Chee Kui and Xuan Kai joined in later after their CIP meeting. So we did the photo frame. Ying Bei completed the rest. She proclaimed she loved to do such handicraft stuff, so yup she is going to finish the rest. THANKS YING BEI!!!!!!!!! So all of them went off earlier than what I expected.
Gosh!!!! I am looking at my pork-like belly now. I feel so unfair. Firstly, I used to be a competitive swimmer and I am from NCC. I should be DARK. I WANT TO BE TANNED AND NOT PALE WHITE. As usual, I am fair and white, it’s in my gene to be plae white . Secondly, I worked out a lot, consume adequate amount of food, and I exercise a lot (since I used to swim everyday, and the tekkan from NCC from 2000 to 2002) I should be getting my 6 packs abs. Sadly, I have only 4 muscles like-look if I squeeze it out or after I exercise. After that, it was back to normal fat pouch. AND WORST!!!!! I can do pull-ups, I can run within 11 mins plus, I have been getting Gold or silver for my Nafa consistently. I CAN SWIM HUNDRED LAPS……AND I AM NOT GETTING THE ABS I WANT!!!!! Fine I will “torture” myself after A level. I will swim everyday and run every morning (if I have the time). I will get back my 33sec for 50 free. I must beat my personal best of 39s of my breaststrokes first muhahahaha. Sadly, I am still fat…..no flexing muscles to show off like other guys. I yearn to be sexy. I want the desire body out-look, so god will guide me through I will fight hard soon. It’s time I must restrain myself from junk food. MAYBE….I should consider liposuction surgery soon.
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Friday, September 23, 2005
The beginning of my journey as a CLT in NCC starting from 12 December 2003
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Ever thought of sometimes, when a CLT signed up for lots of stuff, camps, events and other, it seems that you have went for everything or well almost everything. There’s always a first time. Well to think I served HQ for almost 1 ½ year in NCC, this was my first time taking part and helping out in IMT. Well this was practically my first time, thanks to DC; I was able to go for it. HA, I finished my prelims, so I had a thought to help out HQ. At first, it did not cross my mind because dad “promised” me to give me a part-time one day job. Sadly, he told me last minute that there isn’t any job available in his company. Fine!!!!!! So I ended up helping NCC. And I was kind of unpleased when dad and mum were saying I am kind of wasting my time and I am putting effort in my study. But I was working very hard for prelims; it was just that they did not really see it because for your info, I went to study in Mac and library this time for prelims. Gosh, it’s another first time experience again as I always stick at home to mug last time.
Today IMT was great. I enjoyed working with my juniors CLTs like Hadi Maszura Rafeeq and Xiu Juan. Great Job guys!!!!!!1 It’s just about appearance needed to be improves for some CLTS, don’t want to mention who. But I am sure he will learn from mistakes. We all learn from mistakes. Well everything went smoothly, but there a little bit of cock-up here and there. And some teachers giving some “trouble” (Caption 1), again I must hereby saying I not mentioning about anyone, I am just passing a comments. And this above (caption 1) refers to no one it’s a personal comments and it definitely bear no attacks or grudges to any teachers. Well I may be a teacher one day; I guess I may cause some unnecessary trouble. Oh NO!!!!OK I must stop, I must not be pessimistic. The cadets are kind of “cute” as they are part A, anxious and nervous for they were handling the rifle for the first time, I meant to shoot…..Remember the days when I was in part A, I was so exited over shooting. Well Wei Ren is afraid of the rifle initially, he thought he might kill someone with it or worst committing suicide just because of a M16 rifle, when there isn’t any really bullet inside. Like most of the part A cadets, I am scared, and inevitably, I felt very uncomfortable. In the end I fail my grouping size. I failed all; none of my four try passed. I felt even guilty when one of the retired Encik gave me another chance to re-shoot and I failed again. I did better for part B and Part C, I did well. Haha. To the part A or Part B cadets who are reading my blog, enjoy your shooting experience, it’s one in a live time. (For the girls) and a warm up before army (for the boys).
Well after the IMT, I went to eat with Maszura, Hadi and Rafeeq. We began talking, and at the same time, I was pondering upon something; it was about the objectives of being a CLT. I recalled that I actually got hold of an essay written by a senior whom I have never met of; in my computer. Well in fact, many people came with different purposes. I guess there is this transition of mentality (me personal thought and comments) of attending the CLT course. There are so much of differences of being a CLT than before. Yes things have change. I guess what drive people to attend CLT Course is passion to serve NCC. The olden or I should associate with core reasons that still exist today. But it has evolved; many other reasons became the answer to why attending CLT Course. It comes down to reasons like the good sites, the passion of learning through CLT and NCC, the passion for cadets, the never-die hard spirit to NCC. It can also be the bad sites,(Usually people will definitely not say it) to have a sense of authority or simply the rank name as to what is to be named; Cadet lieutenant. Well having a sense of authority over the cadets may be “healthy” to certain extent but definitely not exactly healthy. HAHA, just a comment. Well I guess some of them may find my reasons to be hypocritical. I started off with a main objective- to learn and thrive throughout my CLT Journey, and to find out more and learn more thorough events that I have missed when I was a cadet and a specialist in Bedok View. But throughout the journey, I found out that my main and core reasons to be a CLT doesn’t comprise of solely the above reason. A hidden reason I had for NCC that I have not noticed until recently mid- last year- a passion for NCC. I love it and it’s a passion that could not be written down in words.
Many at times, when I look back at my journey in NCC, I found out the challenges and setback I have too faced while accomplishing my objectives of learning through NCC. I guess. Sadly, I recalled the past unhappy experiences I had. I recalled once when Lt Zaw told me he was very disappointed with me because I had a commotion with Augustine even though it seems that I am the victim “bullied” by him. But by personal reflection, I thought I had some responsible because of the commotion. Secondly was in YEP. It was great trip. But I learnt the most negative aspect of men. When a team working in a foreign land, every true colours of men came out. I guess my true-self went out too. It; hard to acknowledge a paradox in which someone you thought you know well of, turn out to another person you never expect. A good example, was the time when I guess I was under great stress when I was a I/C. I shouted very badly on Benjamin. Well, I shouted because he wasn’t following my orders. But I started feeling that’s not a good way to be a leader. I should not be the one who “demand” someone to listen to my orders. In fact I was good; I would have convinced everyone to listen to what I said earlier on. I recalled another thing about some stuff that happened in Spec course phase 1. When CLTS are carrying out something they aren’t supposed to do so, I voiced my disapproval. But some of them look it as me being ignorant. I did hold strong to my stand to stop them, but it was learning point too. I guess sometimes in some others eyes; Why Wei Ren deserves the CLT rank? Why Wei Ren is promoted to SCLT? Why Wei Ren is being awarded? Why this and why that. I guess comments flows in as just what it is. It’s inevitable. But I guess it only through these comments which make one stronger.
There are many setbacks and sadness, but there are also joys throughout NCC Journey. The applause and cheers back in NCC Day Dinner was memorable, the tears and joy of winning the challenge trophy. The sense of pride I felt when the CLT rank touched down my shoulder-a starting of my CLT Journey and Responsibility.
Once again, I thanked those who played a significant role in my part- My 46th and 47th intake CLT mates, my juniors’ from 48th onwards, my seniors, my superiors and also lord my saviour.
Thanks to KW who made the call back in February 2004 to ask me to go for camp feast my first ever camp. That was my first step to serve HQ. CK for your sarcastic joke on me haha, we knew each other since primary schools. We were classmates before. DC for giving me so many opportunities despite “imposing a ban” on me on NCC activities. Yuda and Liting who listen to my sorrow sometimes. Jerome and Jennifer for teaching me the wonders of Mahjong. I like mahjong but I don’t play it with money. And of course many more.
Well in conclusion, I guess this an essay which I guess I made use a great load of time to type it, hope some of the passage may let ponder upon some stuff. Take care and may journey be always fruitful. Be strong with setbacks and thrive well!!!!
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Thursday, September 22, 2005
And so finally, I am given a short break before my final and great battle between myself and A level. Ok I think I have to make some changes to what I mentioned ealier on, it seems ABDO is kind of impossible now. I wished I have ACDO or ACCO. And I really hope real badly that my S paper can get distinction. Haiz, Fmaths was ok for Paper 1 but paper 2 was terrible, I cannot do most of the sums and well ya not to mention chemistry, totally no interest in that subject.
I received the letter form from RSAF about a seminar and signed up for it, thought of looking out for a career and scholarship from SAF, but RSAF never came in to my mind before, well thought of hearing more from them. Well I guess that seminar almost everyone has the chance to go, good chance for those who yearn to fly a plane. Not for me though, I have absolutely no interest about flying a plane, but air defence seems interesting.
Well I begin to highlighting certain courses now, both in local U and in Overseas U. I think NSW Asia is good well not to mention NTU. Well for the first time , I am considering NUS Maths. Well see about it.
And so once again I missed loads of great stuff this year for NCC. Firstly I cannot go almost all the overseas trips I guess. And now, I cannot go this visit that visit. CLT Enhancing courses like the water ambassador courses and others carrying out the CIP for Metta School. Well I just need to RENNNNN, once after A level I am going back to HQ. HAHA now back to study, I am supposed to do RJC 05 c maths paper, wonder why MJC is so desperate. Well ya I should be desperate too
Take care
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Friday, September 16, 2005
Physics was terrible, same goes to Chemistry……I hope I can pass physics and get a decent o pass for chem. Gosh Physics was terrible. Even the top student found it hard. I guess the Physics department will like to use this opportunity to give us a wake up call or something, but not to the extent of well something like too tough or over tough. I was so shocked in my life. I cannot solve the mechanics question to think I take f maths at the same time……..
Fine I will go mug hard for f maths hope my overall grade this time will be ABDO
Hope so
Take care
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Wednesday, September 14, 2005
Fine!!!!!! It’s kind of unjustifiable that MJC did not come out the full mechanic section c math’s paper 2. Seriously, it‘s kind of unfair. I know I am pretty weak in Statistics, so I tried the full mechanics option for every other school paper for 2002-2004 during the holidays. It turns out that I score better than the applied math’s section (half stats and half mechanics). So MJC is not “nice” enough to come out section C (Full mechanics) for us, because they believe it’s easier. Fine I may be easy to others but may not be for me. Sianz, in the end I ended up losing 10 marks just for 1 stats question!!!!!!!! Gosh can you imagine a section that is inside the syllabus, and yet the school did not come out that section. Haiz, but I calculated both paper. An A should be right on my hand.
I will be mugging my physics. I guess I still left a few chapters undone. This time, I am going to mug full real hard.
I received the email for Mdm Devi, and I was so much happy when the date for India Trip will be in 25 NOV. HOWEVER, my parents did not allow me to go any other countries this year except family tour I guess which I am not really that keen off. So I have to resolve to spend my time wisely in NCC now…..before entering army. Let’s see, I can help Mdm Devi, go for SSC, OCS trip, help this and help that. No more India Trip……….haiz………….never mind I will seek for alternatives activites in NCC and learn more.
I got to go now take care….
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Tuesday, September 13, 2005
I am back here to blog again. Apparently, I guess almost every blogger in Singapore will be cautious in whatever they “say” or feel. This is because, if you have not notice, 2 people were charged because of that. O gosh!!!!!!!! Well at the same time, almost everyone cannot be bothered with it I think (just a comment, no other meaning) HAHA!!!!
So today was Chemistry Paper 3……….I guess it was the first dreadful paper I ever had so far…..GP wasn’t that hard in fact. Math paper 1 was fine, I skipped like only 5 marks worth of question, went through with friends the paper after the exam, I guess an A should be right on my hand for P1. Well for tomorrow paper 2 I am pretty concerned haha this time I am going to get back the A I missed in prelims. Ha!!!!!!!! I did not do 30 marks worth of question for chem., but I guess I had improved apparently, because I never touch Chemistry at all for the whole entire year. Gosh!!!!!!
Ok parents complaining of me using the computer for so long although I started like only 20 minutes ago…….Fine ok I got to go now take care!!!!!!!!!
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Saturday, September 10, 2005
Us with Mdm Devi
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DC and Me
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Me and CheeKui
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Monday, September 05, 2005
Hi I am back again……..
Ever imagine when women love to say in a cute yet bitchy tone, “Oh no, I am having a period”
Guess it’s time I have to say in Wei Ren version of tone, “Oh no……, I am having a Prelim Exam Period.”
Gosh prelims sucks, I never ever like exams ever since I stepped into the JC Curriculum. I just had my GP Paper today. I am “Proud” to say, nothing (I really mean nothing) that I have read or studied came out. Sigh, once again, I have to attempt a National Education Question, “Small countries cannot survive in the long run” Discuss. Right! SO I attempted this question, wrote my points down, add some chime words inside…………...
And I FINISHED MY ESSAY……rather lengthy though……
Speaking about GP, ha, I happen to pass by one of my friend’s blog where he predicted a war might happen, and Singapore will be involved. Firstly, I guess conflicts among countries may be inevitable. I have to concede with that. But speaking about war, I highly doubt so. Firstly, it is very unlikely for neighbouring countries to attack us. Secondly, I neighbouring countries will be deeply affected if a war happen. Plus, Singapore is economically strong, and it is highly influential. I guess the strong deterrence we have is great enough to dissuade others from attacking us. Guess it’s a matter of time of how we can find ways to stay strong in the region as one of the leading countries.
Guess I need to be back study again, the only thing I just find out more about myself is that I am stupid……I can never do well in exams……..I am sick……I need my cure, A MORALE BOOSTER!!!!!HAHA,I will create it by myself haha.
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Thursday, September 01, 2005
The Superstar Show has come to an end!!!!!!!!!!
YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WEILIAN WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Although, i support he wei jian, but i thought wei lian deserved to win this time. He deserves it wholeheartedly. I had ding chu er you.....i loved the tempo, especially acapella version. I think the JJ is not gentleman enough!!!!!GOSH!!!!!He almost snatched the whole entire verse from kelly or wei lian. WORST!!!! The part where wei lian and kelly had to sing duet. I did not understand why he needed to "interupt", like as if he will not have the chance to sing anymore. He was practically making it his own concert.BOOOOO.......Overall the concert is a wonderful, fabulous!!!!!!!!!!
WOW My parents are going for the concert!!!!!!I am not going haha, because i choose not to, i prefera solo singare singer upthere. WOW......how i wish i can be one too.......afterall i took part in meridian superstar.HAHA
ok back to my revision!!!!i did Anderson JC and Temasek JC paper for c maths was fine got A. VJC paper is horrible i almost get a B all becuase of paper 2
DAR.......Aniway i am back to mugging again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CONGRATS TO KELLY AND WEI LIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU ARE ALREADY A SUPERSTARS ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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