Ok I am going to reward myself to surf the net upon completion of my specimen paper. Haaaaa, I just finished my specimen paper for C math at home, well some sort of test or revision which you got to test yourself. HA i did not follow the time limit cannot be bothered actually. But I guess I did set my pace and it should be within 3 hours for both paper. And i did not refer to the notes...WOWWWW....well ok i just took a glimpse at differential equation.....just 1 minute part. Ok things turn out fine
My paper 1 got like 81/100 and paper 2 was like 79/100.
So I got 80/100 which is an A. (How i wish this is my mid-year grade).....Well never mind.....in fact mid-year made me to appreciate stats. Although i still prefer mechanics. AAAAA i was only given an option to do full stats. This is because apparently, the paper was prepared only for students who study C math only. So they did not print the other option topic like half-mech and half-stats or full Mech. TSK TSK, well i am going to try it, I guess I will do better if i take the full mechanics question of half.

I must admit that i am a self-centered person. A guy who have very high self-esteem, a person who is like very the "ZI LIAN KUANG". Inevitably, i am a person who takes comments seriously and keep it into my heart. I am sensitive. In just one day.......i mean really ONE DAY.......I learnt all the bad side of me. Let's see what i am according to people (my family) who actually quite close to me
I AM
irritating (sometimes i think so too when my fellow clts told me off before)
selfish,
untidy
unhygienic
bossy and nosy or in other words busybody
arrogant.....extremely arrogant
boastful
stupid
(I am the lousiest among my cousins)
(I am the only one who was enrolled in a neighbourhood secondary school.......my mon side all went to autonomous school, while my dad's side are all from RGS)
Irresponsible
a person who thinks os highly of himself yet he isn't
(because i my PSLE score is lousy a mere 223 points)
(A L1R5 Point of 13 is lousy)
(3A1 4A2s 1 C6 in O level is a lousy grade, and yet wei ren think this is good enough already)
a person who cannot excel in his life as he has no goal
a student who can forget about aceing my a level subjects(not to mention about scholarship).
a person who depend a lot on my parents.
a student who think MJC is good although it's lousy as compared to RJC and VJC.....Face the fact they are really better than MJC.
a person who does not realter to his parents well even thought his parents dote him
a christian who do behave like one(i am short-tempered)


Sadly, this really sounds as if i am like a born loser. Well some are true though. Taking so much of criticism in one short day is kind of hurtful. But yet i am pondering upon, am i really a loser.....and i really so bad to the extent. Am i really so lousy......
Do you know it was really sad, i mean i was very-heart-brokened when i did not make it to stay in TJC. I always want to prove everyone around me wrong. I want to prove them that a neghbourhood student like me can suceed one day. But in the end i failed. Firstly, i failed to enroll into a reputable secondary school. Secondly i was being "condemned" or "shoot" for enrolling into a JC that is not as good as TJC, VJC,RJc,HCJC or even AJC.
I must admit i did not like MJC intially, but now i am proud to be one. I always believe that my school MJC is able to prove everone wrong. MJC can really make it to the TOP 5 alhtough there isn't anymore ranking for JCs........I failed to achieve a niche that i yearn for in my JC. i wanted to be one of the top students. And yet i am not...sadly......
I talk so much about scholarship, and i really beileve i have a high chance in getting MJC Scholarship. But in the end i failed to achieved it. I am just a sore-loser, who talk too much.

All i can do now is to make sure i put all these comments adise, ponder, think, and reflect.......I am going to be strong, bring the best out of me. AAAC and a merit for s paper and C5 for Gp is can be done. I am going to be strong and fight hard for my last battle.........to attain the highest peak in my life. God is always there for me.

Sadly, i am still reflecting the relationship between me and my parents especially my mum........the family bond is just dwindling........i need a peace and help in my soul..........i really need to put more faith now in god and also most importantlt myself. God is always there for me..........

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