Monday, June 27, 2005
I was once again back to my blue MJC uniform and the first day was hectic,when i had my FMATHS PAPER 1 AND PHYSICS PAPER 1 AND 2. I screwed up for both, and i am expecting a "just pass" A level gradefor my fmaths which is like an E or O, well maybe better D. I was kind of surprised with Physics, it turned up well. I was wondering maybe i can just get a C or a D. But now i am aiming high o GOSH A.
Fmaths paper 1
i guess i was daydreaming, i did not notice the last page of questions and i just lost 14 marks for nothing. I knew how to do it but i was just too careless. I guess it is a great lesson for me to learn from it.Sign i guess i have to fair better for paper2
Physics paper 1 and 2
I just merely glanced through my notes and i was lucky becouase most of the stuff i read came out. Well ya , it was so much better than Fmaths. I was kind of confident now to attain A b or A for Paper 1 and 2. That means i have to work even harder for paepr 3 which i think will turn out to a disaster. Haha
I spoke to Kwang Wei last week, things turn out so pleasent when you talk directly to that person. I am so gratefull for jennifer help. The msg about kwangwei looking for me meant a lot. Guess i still have to learn a lot of things.
to the unknown guy who keep saying how bad am i , please don't make use of my blog as a personal attack. I sincerely hope it will be best for you to keep in silence. It is best for you to keep quiet if you are not clear what happened. It is best for you indeed. I sincerely appreciate that.Furthermore, the ironic part is that you kept saying how bad am i and saying about my school, yet you did not even identify yourself.If you are here to find fault with me , it wll be best for you to talk straight in front of me or tell me directly in msn or somehow another. Please don't wrong me for nothing. Iam sure will not like it if others do that to you.
A day has gone and i am really eager to go back this friday bvtraining after mid-yr examination wow!!!!!!1
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Tuesday, June 21, 2005
I just learnt something, lots of stuff indeed. Along the journey, i found out lots of things and realised lots of things. I remembered in my blog, i made a statement very clearly to put good memories in my blog. Yet again, i failed to do so.HA,emotion is so terrible, it can control your action very easily.I admit i used harsh words in my blog........these harsh words are all deep down from the accumalating anger, hatred and temper.
I learnt so much again and again. I see how people look at you differently,how bad can politics be....Especially when in a team, somebody you hated so much, you really hope that somethng bad can happen onto him. Yet again, you wll always that hope he will be in the deep end after trouble fell upon him. Well this is part of a reality, it's fact, everybody falls into the unexoectable trap.
I am not intending to purse the issue or continue to write my displeasure because i will start another unitentional blog war. Yuda was right...we are CLTS afterall...well i guess all i need to do is just forgive forget and let the matter come to a rest. I have learnt the most important in life or well in the bible. Forgive and Forget......"love your enemies like yourself" It is something in which it is hard to accept, but i will have to give it a try.
I AM DELETING THE PREVIOUS POST NOT BECAUSE I AM WRoNG, or yet again I am not guilty for the word i said.....
i am deleting it because, firstly, the whole blog entry was wirtten in rage and anger. To all those people who read it and were ANGRY WITH IT, that the facts afterall. The truth is for you to find out. If you think what i state are just a bunch or a pack of rubbish. SO BE WITH IT. Because to you, i am just merely a guy rattiling or whinning at his poor little blog. But let me get these clear, I have state the truth and i have no regret in it.
OOO i have just forgotten something, have you ever realised people do not always take charge or be responsible with the words they said. When it comes down to words that are offensive and serious, people will resolve to caliming that he did not said these words, or they always blamed the guy who question him, you are just merely putting words across my mouth. So, point taken , be more tactful and responsible with what you have siad. Another reality of life, "I did not say this, i did not say that"
Sadly, the spec course phase 2 ended up with so many people bearing hatred with each other, well i guess it's time for healing ot happen, to prevent all the CLTS to break the barrier of ICE.
take care
wei ren
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Saturday, June 11, 2005
I just came back from my first NDP Parade training……was fine there and I am seriously shagged and well depressed since the spec course phase 1
Spec course phase 1 was a 4 day camp, I was appointed as the S4 OIC. I was kind of glad and well excited to take up the job at first. HA….I thought S4 was like as easy as last year spec course when I was doing s4 job back then. But the 4 day taught lots of thing and stuffs. Firstly, I have one guy called khairul who did not come for spec course despite signing up. I have 2 CLTS who was initially in S4; well they got transferred to S3 job, platoon stuff. So I was left with a total of 4 CLTS including me.
First day morning
Hikam left for school, shukri had to temporary help out with s3 job. So it left me and Kent doing the s4 job. Ha I was doing all the stuff with kent, separating myself from in there is a need doing all the logistics stuff. 2 people, doing so many job, yet the feedback during debrief was disappointing, well they said s4 needs to be more efficiently. Despite us making our effort to get things done, the feed back was we have to do things fast and prioritize which is more important to be done……HAHA first day comments by OIC was kind of negative. FINE SO I HAD A DEBRIEF WITH MY S4, everything will be better for the second day.
Second day
Everything was fine, no comments. We did our part and I was satisfied with everything. We did our job well, and OIC had acknowledged it too, that’s great too. HA, the only thing I was very shocked was that a CLT came out of nowhere he volunteered himself to replace shen an, well he flew airplane also in the end, well he was instead transferred to help my s4 team. It does not really matter seems the 4 of us in s4 can help each other then.
Third day
My team had a meeting with DC, which turn out to be misunderstanding. What we meant overwork was during the first day only, which caused so many misunderstandings
Fourth day
I was deeply hurt not by others by myself. I was overly helpful which in turn become something ignorant, and I made a stupid yet unintentional mistakes. Many people misunderstood me. Well then I was like trying to speak up for my cadets for OOC, not because that I am biased but well I think they have the potential. But every1 shoots me that I should not interfere since I am a S4 and I have no right to interfere. I can be partially true, but I do observe cadets at the same time, well I guess i was wrong and my fault .
To all CLTS whom I have offended and made you unhappy with my action, I am very sorry
NDP sat training
Everything turns out fine until in the bus where, all my CLT mates seriously hurt me deeply emotionally. Well making fun of me is a norm, BUT it was so bad that I was deeply humiliated in the bus in front of so many cadets right in the bus. No one really understands my feeling backs then, well I guess I was kind of wrong or irritating during the afternoon, I said thing that seems rubbishy to them like “girls wipe yr sweat”, and giving command when I forgotten that Alvin was giving it already.Bbut I did not really expect myself to be hurt so badly. I guess I am just like my cadets, I tend to see word and comments so seriously. I need to learn hw to overcome it. But seriously, I was deeply hurt that time, it’s just that no one notices it, except some clts whom they know me better.
lastly, i do not know why but when the moment at the last part at the bus reaching tampines, i was assuming everone will be happy and do not say thing that is negative, but every1 just pointed at me and said "KAO PEI" well, the moment was reall so bad, i was shocked and deeply stunt, my days was ruined because of the 2 word, i do ot know why but it was like a flash and my heart was broken up into 2pieces. Especially a senior whom i look so up upon, she was a CLT even when i was a cadet, then the way she said deeply hurt me. i dunno y but then it's like i always look up upon her and respect her. But just now when she pointed at me saying the Kp word made a deep hole in my heart. Some clts told me it was just a joke, well i know i t may or could ne a joke. I had never felt so hurt before. A reason i myself cannot find.
lord you are my best buddy, help me guide, i will always remeber what u said in isaiah 41:13 help me guide me groom me, for i am your servant who is now crying out my hearts to you.
p.s oo b4 i foget, well i will like to congrtualte BV BOYS AND GIRLS (PART C) . I am so proud of you all. In fact yr cohort has done better than your seniors. Just wanna say congratulations to
Gabriel
Fairul
Darizuwan
for being nominated for best cadets
It does not matter if you never got it, but you have done our school proud....
All the best guys and girls
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Thursday, June 02, 2005
All right I am so fortunate to use my dad’s laptop now to update my blog…..all thanks to the stupid power supply failure in my computer. And worst I am totally a computer idiot.
The holidays are starting but they are going to be gone soon. Following it will be MJC MID-YEAR EXAMINATION, well in other words doom day; I have not been studying much these days except for mugging my maths and fmaths, I still cannot figure out vectors anyway and horrible stats also……..plus I am not bothering much about chem. OH NO!!!!!!! Great maybe a grade of AAAF in an A level cert can be that impact ya
NCC specialists’ course is about to start this week and I will get to see my boys once again after missing so many school training days. Hey I am not to be blamed, my school ends at 5-6 pm everyday. Well I have passed a note to them and I really hope they can excel, well I am can foresee one of my boys potential a tall guy in fact, to keep up my school trend success. He’s in PDS NDP squad. Okay I cannot talk too much of him, or else nevertheless, associated with favoritism liao.
I am posted as S4 OIC for spec course phase 1. GREAT, that means I really have quite a great time for studying my exam during camp, while serving the core and HQ and most importantly EAST. Well I guess the biggest challenge I see so far is how to handle about 9 CLTS under me for S4, well not to worry so much, KHAIRUL is assisting me so happy!!!!!!! WELL spec course could be the last camp I am going to because of A LEVEL, sob sob… but I will enjoy myself and work hard for the last time. Spec course here i come to releash my power !!!!!haha just joking....ok i am lame.....
I just had Trainfire training just now back in HQ!!!!!ALL I can say is TK PART A BOYS ARE GREAT!!!!!! They really lived up to their school name, they are greta even thought they are just part A. The specialists are great too helpful. They are much better now and they should be. All I felt about TK was just daoness last time. BUT THEY ARE REALLY GOOD. JUN HE you did a great job, keep it up. TK PART A boys are also so cute………so different from what the past TK part A boys. Well they also have a couple of rigid and firm part A, those who are always sitting up straight and don’t really relax at all. The only thing now TK need is to relax a bit. Well they have improved a lot keep up the good jobs. They are the first PART A cadets whom i have thought to be one of the bests.
KEEP UP GUYS APPLAUSE TO YOU ALL!!!!
(But pls relax a bit)(Feel free to say hi to me if you can remember me)
All right I am so fortunate to use my dad’s laptop now to update my blog…..all thanks to the stupid power supply failure in my computer. And worst I am totally a computer idiot.
The holidays are starting but they are going to be gone soon. Following it will be MJC MID-YEAR EXAMINATION, well in other words doom day; I have not been studying much these days except for mugging my maths and fmaths, I still cannot figure out vectors anyway and horrible stats also……..plus I am not bothering much about chem. OH NO!!!!!!! Great maybe a grade of AAAF in an A level cert can be that impact ya recent lect test was like AABF anywy haizzzzzzzz
NCC specialists’ course is about to start this week and I will get to see my boys once again after missing so many school training days. Hey I am not to be blamed, my school ends at 5-6 pm everyday. Well I have passed a note to them and I really hope they can excel, well I am can foresee one of my boys potential a tall guy in fact, to keep up my school trend success. He’s in PDS NDP squad. Okay I cannot talk too much of him, or else nevertheless, associated with favoritism liao.
I am posted as S4 OIC for spec course phase 1. GREAT, that means I really have quite a great time for studying my exam during camp, while serving the core and HQ and most importantly EAST. Well I guess the biggest challenge I see so far is how to handle about 9 CLTS under me for S4, well not to worry so much, KHAIRUL is assisting me so happy!!!!!!! WELL spec course could be the last camp I am going to, sob sob… but I will really enjoy myself and work hard for the last time.
I just had Trainfire training just now back in HQ!!!!!ALL I can say is TK PART A BOYS ARE GREAT!!!!!! They really lived up to their school name, they are greta even thought they are just part A. The specialists are great too helpful. They are much better now and they should be. All I felt about TK was just daoness last time. BUT THEY ARE REALLY GOOD. JUN HE you did a great job, keep it up. TK PART A boys are also so cute………so different from what the past TK part A boys. Well they also have a couple of rigid and firm part A, those who are always sitting up straight and don’t really relax at all. The only thing now TK need is to relax a bit. Well they have improved a lot keep up the good jobs. They are the first PART A cadets whom i have thought to be one of the bests.
KEEP UP GUYS APPLAUSE TO YOU ALL!!!!
(But pls relax a bit)
(Feel free to say hi to me if you can remember me)
Ha I met CLT IAN GAN TENG FONG wow, he slimmed down a lot, poor boy could be due to stress, but he needs to work a lot harder to maintain BV glory and erm his train fire knowledge…..his is going rusty o no…..that can be bad…but well he got off it. He’s the best junior man. Great BV CLT PAL!!!!!!
Recently a CLT of my age actually pissed me off, rudeness in fact, and later he then went by saying he was just vexed and pissed off with some school admin and just vetting off his anger at me!!!!! I am fine with it after sometime…
Well maybe I shouldn’t have mentioned it but I was really pissed off with the fact that particular CLT merely just came by to HQ and then well taught stuff without his sleeve long fold, despite me saying how many time. Well then he left with his sec school ppl… leaving the rest of the rifles and saikang jobs to the rest of the CLTS!!!!!!! So irresponsible in fact!!!!!!!
I also found out actually some CLTS actually do the things that they like to do, and if they are given a job they hate to do, they just back off, withdraw and avoid…HAIZZZZZ…well I know it’s normal for everyone to be like that. C’MON we are human, we all like to do that , but there are certain limitation to it, especially when u seldom do that job. I don’t know, but I can say that as A CLT, I have actually made myself try every post. I really wonder why some CLTS are so particular about some stuff……maybe only god knows…..
Hehe I must add this into my diary, maybe it will really bring back lots of memories!!!!!!
Life as A CLT IN CAMP
Camp Feast:04
Phase 2 APC
Phase 3 PC
Spec Course:04
Phase 2 APC
Phase 3 S4
05
Phase 1 S4 OIC (first time become OIC, so happy)
Attended
Numerous of live range and trainfire trainings in 2005
All right that’s about it I need to go liao take care
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